Chemo # 5

Well an exciting week for my blog and I as we were added to the i2y.com stupid cancer blogroll. This gives all the users of this website access to my blog. It's almost like it's published pretty cool eh! i2y.com is a pretty cool website it's worth a look... Jolaine I do feel more at peace and ease these days although this week was up and down again. Jen my attitude stays strong because of my wife and kids. Stephanie you were so funny at Erin's last night but I hope your morning wasn't to hard today. Jewel you and Jen playing taboo together is not fair I mean you know the color of each others underwear. Jen your saltwater gargle worked with my sore tooth thanks so much!!! Surprise!!! Erin a devoted commenter to my blog and friend of my wife and I had her dirty 30th bday last night... When she came through the door she was mauled by my wife and Stephanie. Erin nearly peed her pants. Oh well maybe your 40th the bladder won't be so strong and you'll pee then lol. We had a great time you were so funny at the party and you seemed pumped up and I made it to 1:00 am not bad for a guy who had chemo the day before!

Chemo # 5 went off with a bang on friday. I felt pretty energetic after my chemo and was able to go out and do some chores right after with Jen. We picked the girls up at my brothers and I came home for a nap. After my nap and for the first time since doing chemo I didn't feel well. I thought I was going to puke... I got a little nasty and I was able to fight it off with the help of my antinausea meds. I didn't sleep at all friday night but that was ok I was able to watch the not so good opening ceremonies for the olympics. I popped my prednisone on Saturday morning and slept most of saturday during the day. Aunt Lisa came down with Kelsey and Jacklynn to watch the girls so Jen and I could goto Erin's surprise 30th party sat night.

Dr Loman who I seen at the clinic on thursday kinda rubbed me the wrong way. He's a retired Oncologist how helps out at the clinics on thursday because unfortunately the clinics are so busy they need all the help they can get. He kept referring to my cancer a uncureable which I KNOW IT IS! When I asked about a PET Scan he told me unless I was going to pay for it he wouldn't order it. He told me because I have a incureable cancer that this scan wasn't necessary. I do agree to some extent with this because it doesn't tell me nothing as to if I'll ever relapse but it does give me a peace of mind. But he's an old school doc no use arguing with him I'll wait for Dr Chin-yee and try again he's more reasonable. If not I'll pay for the friggin thing myself. My CAT scan is set for feb 17th and the docs are 85% sure I'll only need on more chemo so that's good I think my body needs a rest from the chemo.

I'm starting to think about life after chemo. I guess I need to think about going back to work. This for me should be an easy transition I have a great partner in Dennis which will make it easy for me. I was able to have a nice visit with him last week. I still want to be able goto wellspring to make use of all there fine programs. I've also want to continue talk and see all my cancer buddies who helped me greatly through this journey. I worry a bit about my stamina because I don't have any right now but I'm sure it'll come back although it'll be slowly. Of course my diet and excercise will have to jumo to the forefront. Know more chemo eating but who cares I'm alive and doing well!!!

I've become addicted to reading other peoples blogs with cancer. Some of them are really well done and truly inspiring writings. I find peace in reading all the crap these people go through and all the positive vibes they still give up is amazing. I realized cancer hasn't ruined my life it has been a wake up call for me. I always considered myself a guy who lived life day by day. Then cancer came and now I live day by day. I learned what's important I get it and for that I feel lucky. The problem is when you learn this you want to even live longer because you simplfy life after cancer. When you have cancer you don't have a clue how long you'll be around. That's the irony of the whole thing you want to live but how long will I be around is the question. I believe I still have alot of time to make my mark on this planet. This is important to me because I want to instill my values on my girls. They are my world my light and my energy. For them I'll live my life to it's fullest not feeling sorry for myself but appreciative for the time I have with them. Of course my wife who holds the family together right now while I fight the fight. She kinda gets the tireless job of taking care of us all thank-you honey!